Wednesday, September 28

Mahlatse Ramatseba

Slow poison Chapter 23

SLOW POISON
INSERT TWENTY-THREE
#TEEKAY
I became conscious but I tried opening my eyes it became a mission
They were so heavy and my head was pounding
For a minute I thought I was asleep in my own bed so why was it difficult to open my eyes
When have waking up ever became such a mission
*I tried moving my hand and I felt a warm hand touching me
I was overwhelmed, who could be in my room
Who was touching me
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" Am here nana, I am right here" LANI's voice sounded
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I moved my head and with much force I tried opening my eyes and finally I was able to open them
But my vision was a bit blurry
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" Yes, thank God you are awake, let me go get the doctor" Thulani said

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He let go of my hand and quickly exited the room
My vision returned to normal with each blink
I looked around and I was surrounded by beeping machines and my throat burned like hell
It finally downed to me, I was in a hospital bed
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I tried lifting my head attempting to sit up but my head was just too heavy for my body to carry
So I lay back down, I swallowed saliva but my mouth was so dry, I needed water
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My mind raced down to what brought me here
I suddenly remembered the shocking revelation I discovered before I collapsed in my room
I remember how I was left to drown in my own pull of blood
My heart pounded heavier
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I mean why would rato wanna do that to me
Was she trying to kill me, but why, what did I do
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I closed my eyes again and all I saw was her injecting a needle on my arm while I was bleeding on the floor
I remembered telling her to stop
I actually begged her to stop
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But all she said was a lousy " am sorry"
She didn't look sorry though
Her eyes were cold and filled with hatred
She lifted her hand and injected the needle
And I screamed louder sitting up straight
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" Pleeeeeeaaase stooop" I cried out
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" Whoaw come down dear" a male doctor said, he rushed in with THULANI
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" She wants to kill me, she's trying to kill me" I said breathing heavily
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" No nana you are safe, you are safe now
No one will ever hurt you again I promise" Thulani said
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He held my hand and I held on tight on him with my body shaking
I was so scared
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The doctor paged through the file and came to me
I hesitantly let go of thulani while he examined me
He shone that touch in my eyes and mouth
He checked my heartbeat and everything
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Then he wrote something down
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Dr: I know your mouth feels dry and you wish you can have something to drink right
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Me: yes
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Dr: well we can't give you any liquid right now
The drip is the only thing that has to be in your system
The nurse will come and give you an injection with something that will flash the rest of the remaining drugs out of your system
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Me: my head is pounding
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Dr: well that's only normal and to be expected, don't worry the nurse will come with the pain meds
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I just nodded, he then exited
And I was now only left with Thulani
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Him: are you ohk
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Me: I feel like I've been hit by a train
My whole body aches
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Him: you are strong, I know you will get through this and you will be fine
I am gonna be with you every step of the way ohk
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Me: why, why would lerato wanna hurt me,
She was my only best friend and I don't remember ever doing something that might have upset her or jeopardize our friendship
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I was hurt and confused no lie, I really didn't wanna believe that my own friend could hurt me like that
While in actual fact she did. Now I was here behind this white hospital walls, cramped in this tiny bed and fearing for my dear life
I had one thing on my mind: what if she comes back to finish me
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" Please hlehle don't do that to yourself
Don't cry, my heart gets torn into shreds when I see you cry" Thulani's voice creeped in my web of thoughts
It caught me off guard and like hypnotism it brought me back to reality
I didn't realize that I was actually crying
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I attempted to wipe the tears with the back of my hand but Thulani beat me to it
With his thumb, he wiped my tears gently
His face was just covered with worry and concern
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" You don't have to cry, am here now I will protect you
Ngifuna wati kutsi noma ngabe kwentekani (I want you to know that no Matter what happens) I will always be by your side
NgiyakuTsandza mine Hlehle, ngehlitiyo yami yonke futsi
(I love you hlehle, wholeheartedly)" he said
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His tone was so sincere and his voice so reassuring
I caught a glimpse of him and the visible glass in his eyes caught my attention
Wow he was actually tearing up for me, how lucky was i to have a man like him in my life
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" I love you too and I forgive you"
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Him: what
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Me: I heard you in my sleep and I forgive you for the baby issue
It is your past and am ready to be your present and future if possible
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Upon hearing that my superman smiled broadly
He held on tight to my hand and kissed it
Then he moved from the chair and sat on the bed
He gave one hell of a kiss that drove me insane
I had no idea how much I missed him until now
Holding him close to me, feeling his warm breath on my skin was the most wonderful feeling ever
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"Thank you" he finally said breaking the kiss
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Me: and thank you for picking up my call at a crucial time
You are my hero
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Him: and you are my heroin, even at the depth of the darkest night I will always be there to pick up your call
I love you and it is my duty to pick up when destiny calls
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Me: so am your destiny
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Him: you are everything to me now I have two most important people in my life
I feel highly favored by God
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Me: two mmh so who and who
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Him: you and my son, you guys are my pillar of strength
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He became emotional, tears fell freely from his checks
His face was just withdrawn, something else was bothering him
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Me: you are worrying me, what really Is the problem
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Him: nothing, I just feel like I could have protected my child
He also deserved a fair share at life and they took him away from me
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Me: is there anything wrong with mduduzi
Am sure you can get him back after you done with your studies
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He just chuckled inbetween the tears, and I felt like something deeper was disturbing him. maybe he missed his son so much
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We spent the whole afternoon together
And later I literally had to force him to leave but he refused
He said there's no place he rather be than my side
And he said he had made arrangement with the hospital and they had agreed to let him stay until I got discharged
He was just the sweetest boyfriend ever and I couldn't help but fall inlove with him even more
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Later I called sis nyiko, I just wanted to greet her. But I didn't tell her that I was in a hospital though
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Her: so did your father call you this morning
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Me: ah he didn't , I wonder why do you even bother asking
You know how less they don't give a damn about me
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Her: that's not true nana, they love you just like every parent loves their kids
They just have a different way of showing it
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Me: you need not to defend them, we both know that mama na papa they are shitty parents
They think money is everything, I mean I could even die here and they will not know
That's how little they care
I have robots as parents while other kids have the privilege of having real parents
At time I wish I was never born because I think i Came as a mistake to them
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Her: give them time nono, its a learning process for them
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Me: time, time sis'nyiko, those people had twenty years to learn, thats more than enough time
Hell they gave birth to me, they need not to learn to love me it should come naturally
But instead their love for money replaced their love for me
You raised me, you were a mother and a father to me
I don't care if it was your job because the truth is you were good at it
You cared for me in many ways than a parent could ever do for her child
And I will forever be grateful for that
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I was now emotional
I could hear sis'nyiko sniffing on the other end of the line
She took a deep breath
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Her: you are my child nono and I will do anything for you
Just bear with your parents am sure they will come around
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Me: and that would be after they see my cold body in a coffin and realized that they lost a daughter
That's when they will come around
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Her: owh swane lami, (owh my baby) just forgive them
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Sis'nyiko has always been so kind, sometimes maybe to kind but she was the mother I knew
We talked about some other stuff and I told her that I forgave Thulani
She was just glad that I was happy
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"She sounds like a remarkable woman" thulani sAid after I dropped the call
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Me: she is and more, all I know is that her kids will be lucky to have her as a mother someday
As for me, I wish she was my real mom
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Him: I could hear from the sound of her voice, she is down to earth
I wish I could have met my mother
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Me: am so sorry, God knows why she took her away or why you had to go through all those terrible things your father did to you
No child deserves to be molested by their parents
Are you sure he his your real father though
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Him: of'cause, I mean how else could I have been living with him
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Me: you did say you don't remember your first ten years and I find that strange
I mean does he atleast have pictures of you before you were ten
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Him: not really, I have never asked him though
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Me: you need not to ask, your pictures should be around the house
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Him: maybe you right, something really does smell fishy
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We talked a bit, then the nurse came and gave me the shots and right after that I fell asleep
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I watched quietly as Hlehle slept soundly
I was happy no lie, the fact that she woke up was just the joyful thing ever
But a part of my heart ached, I so badly wanted to tell her that he lost a baby in the midst of all that chaos but I was just plain scared
I was scared of hurting her even further.
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I tried taking my mind off that painful incident
And what Hlehle mentioned filled my mind
Something was awfully not right about my childhood and my so called father
I looked at the black almost triangle like shaped mark on my arm
I remember asking my father what was that mark for and where I got it but he never gave me an honest answer
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My father never really talked about my childhood
He never said anything concerning me or my mother really
I thought that maybe talking about it reminded him of how my mother died but funny thing is I never even saw a picture of my mother
What if what hlehle said was true
But then if vusi is not my father then who is
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I made myself comfortable on the chair and tried falling asleep
I didn't wanna leave hlehle alone because I really didn't know what my father's goons intentions were
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Before I could take a nap my phone vibrated
I quickly checked it and it was a message from alex
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"The gang is back on boss, all the guys are in and ready to lay their heads on the line for you
I set up a meeting for this weeked" the message read
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"Sharp leza go ahead and set the meeting tell them that ngitobabona weekend" I wrote back
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I switched off the phone and tried sleeping
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#slowpoison

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