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Thursday, January 1

Diary of a Patient Mistress insert 10

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Stan and i became really close, you could swear we have been dating for years, when it was just barely a month. Life was good and all seemed to go well except the intimacy. each time we are together, mostly at his place of course, we would hug, kiss and cuddle, but NEVER go further than that. I know it was a bit early to start being entirely intimate but i felt like i could trust him with my life. Considering our closeness, we were ready to take our relationship to the bedroom level.

The first time i went to visit him, we did nothing at all, which was only natural. Second time still nothing, third time, nothing at all. I thought he was just being a gentleman, not rushing into doing things we will regret later. We were approaching valentines day and he called:

Stan: Hey baby, how are you doing?
Me: I'm okay love, how is work?
Stan: Work is great love, just missing you
Me: Ncoooh, that's so sweet. I miss you too baby
Stan: I know that this is a bit premature, but my birthday is coming up pretty soon and i was wondering if i could spend the day with you. Just the two of us you know, i'll cook if it will make you happy?
Me: Well u know i have a baby right? So i can't give you an answer straight away, i need to check if my sister can babysit for me on that day.
Stan: Tell your sister i'll pay if needs me to, i just wanna be with my lady
Me: Mmmmmm, ok hun. I'll talk to her when she comes back and i'll notify u about her response later.
Stan: I hope she won't mind, cos i'll be pulling all the stops baby
Me: U are such a charmer u know that? I hope i manage to twist her arm, i also cannot wait to celebrate with you
Stan: I know i'm a charmer baby
Me: *i paused a little* Know you sound like an egoist baby
Stan: Sorry, but i only say that because you have told me more than once that i'm a charmer so that's how i know
Me: Ooooh, i thought you were getting too big for your shoes now*i laughed a little*
Stan: For you my baby? Never
Me: Now that sounds a lot better
Stan: Let me finish this report, we will speak later then my lady
Me: Yes my lord, i look forward to it. Enjoy the rest of your day hun
Stan: You too baby, i love you neh
Me: I love you too baby

That was it, i finally get to spend the night at Stan's place. I'm not hoping to get laid but to connect with him a different level. So i asked my sister if she could baby sit and she agreed, i so looked forward to telling Stan the good news.

So i decided to call him first cos i was too excited to keep it any longer...

Me: Hey love, hope you not busy
Stan: Not at all my baby
Me: I spoke to my sister about babysitting and she said she has appointment with her boyfriend, I'm so sorry love, was looking forward to being with you but the timing just isn't right
Stan: *quiet for a moment*
Me: Baby are u still there? I'm kidding, she agreed to babysit. I'm your baby that night
Stan: U almost killed me there, but i'll get for that. Tell your sister i say thank you and that i promise to make it up to her. And you foxy lady, be prepared to be spoiled, rotten!
Me: I can't wait baby
Stan: I love you baby girl, don't ever forget that
Me: You say it so much that i don't to be reminded. I know dear, and i love you too. Bye hun
Stan: bye baby

It was now done, looking forward to the 13th of Feb, ohhh wait, that's in 2 days time. And when we wake up it will be valentines? i gotta get my hair done, a new sets of clothing, sexy lingerie and his PREZZIE...... Wednesday and counting..... TICK TOCK TICK TOCK...

Diary of a Patient Mistress insert 9

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WAS I DREAMING? STAN JUST SAID THAT HE LOVES ME... THAT WAS ALL I HAD BEEN WAITING FOR, TO FINALLY FIND LOVE AFTER MY MISERY. I WAS SOON TO START A NEW LIFE, WITH A NEW MAN , WHO APPRECIATED ME IN EVERY WAY. LIFE COULDN'T GET ANY BETTER! I FELT HAPPY, I STILL DIDN'T KNOW HOW TO REACT AFTER WHAT STAN HAD TOLD ME, I WONDERED IF HE JUST SAID THAT TO GET ME IN TO HIS PANTS OR DID HE REALLY MEAN IT? THERE WAS ONLY ONE WAY TO FIND, TO PLAY ALONG. HE CALLED....

STAN: HEY BBE
ME: HEY U
STAN: HOW WAS UR NIGHT?
ME: IT WAS OK, NOTHING OUT OF THE ORDINARY
STAN: OUCH, I THOUGHT U WOULD SAY U HAD THE BEST NIGHT
ME: WHY THE BEST..*ACTING SURPRISED*
STAN: HAVE U FORGOTTEN WHAT I TOLD U LAST NIGHT?
ME: NOT AT ALL, ACTUALLY, I THOUGHT ABOUT IT ALL NIGHT
STAN: AND?
ME: WELL YOU KNOW I COME FROM A WHACK RELATIONSHIP AND I DON'T KNOW IF I'M READY TO LOVE JUST YET
STAN: YOU DON'T HAVE TO LOVE NOW, JUST GIVE ME A CHANCE, THAT'S ALL I ASK.
ME: IF YOU PUT IT THAT WAY THEN, I GUESS I'LL HAVE TO TRUST MY INSTINCTS
STAN:THAT'S MY GIRL, NOW WE ARE OFFICIAL RIGHT?
ME: *LAUGHED SOFTLY* I GUESS WE ARE
STAN: MY WOMAN, I PROMISE I WON'T BE LIKE YOUR EX. I'M NOT SUPERMAN BUT I WILL TRY MY ALL TO MAKE YOU HAPPY
ME: WE'LL SEE AS TIME GOES BY
STAN: BABY YOU DON'T SOUND CONVINCED?
ME: I AM, BELIEVE
STAN: OK THEN, LET ME GET READY FOR WORK. I'LL CALL YOU WHEN I GET TO THE OFFICE
ME: ALRIGHT, I'LL BE WAITING.
STAN: BYE MY ANGEL, HAVE A GREAT DAY AND REMEMBER THAT 'YOUR MAN' LOVES YOU
ME: SAME TO YOU HUN

I ROSE FROM BED FEELING WONDERFUL, DECIDED TO BATH QUICKLY THEN START CLEANING. I MADE MYSELF SOME BREAKFAST AND WATCHED SOME TV, MY BABY WAS NOW AWAKE. I BATHED HER, FED HER AND WE SAT TOGETHER PLAYING AND FOOLING AROUND. IT WAS ALREADY NOON AND STAN HAD NOT CALLED ME, I WANTED TO CALL HIM BUT I WAS AFRAID HE WOULD THINK THAT I'M ALL UP IN HIS SPACE, SO I DIDN'T CALL HIM.

I WAS GOING CRAZY NOW, I HAD THE SAME PROBLEM WITH JOE. I'M A WOMAN, SO IF A MAN SAYS THEY WILL CALL AT A CERTAIN TIME, YOU EXPECT THEM TO DO SO. I BEGAN WONDERING IF GIVING STAN A CHANCE WAS REALLY WORTH IT, BUT THEN I THOUGHT TO MYSELF THAT ONLY TIME WILL TELL. JUST WHEN I WAS TYPING HIM A TEXT, HE CALLED ME

STAN: SUNSHINE, SORRY I COULDN'T CALL EARLIER. I HAD A DEADLINE AND MY BOSS WAS SITTING ON MY NECK
ME:*RELIEVED* OHHH, OK. I ACTUALLY THOUGHT THAT YOU HAD DISAPPEARED ON ME
STAN: NEVER, I TOLD YOU THAT I'M GOING TO TRY AND MAKE YOU MY FIRST PRIORITY
ME: NOW THAT'S A RELIEVE
STAN: SO HOW IS YOUR DAY SO FAR? MISS ME ALREADY?
ME: DO YOU EVEN HAVE TO ASK, WHEN WILL I BE SEEING YOU AGAIN?
STAN: VERY SOON MY LOVE, I CAN'T WAIT TO TASTE THOSE SOFT LIPS OF YOURS AGAIN
ME: ME NEITHER
STAN: YOU KNOW, I HAVE NEVER FELT SO ATTACHED TO A WOMAN MY ENTIRE LIFE, IT'S LIKE WE HAVE KNOWN EACH FOR DECADES. WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN HIDING YOURSELF?
ME? *BLUSHING* I COULD ASK YOU THE SAME QUESTION YOU KNOW. BUT WHATS IMPORTANT IS THAT WE FOUND ONE ANOTHER IN TIME, SO WE HAVE TO MAKE THE BEST OF EVERY MOMENT
STAN: YOU READ MY MIND SO BRILLIANTLY! THANKS FOR GIVING US A CHANCE, I WILL NOT LET YOU DOWN
ME: I'M GLAD I DID, I HAVE BEEN CAGED FOR TOO LONG AND NOW IS THE RIGHT TIME FOR ME TO EXPLORE. I JUST NEED YOU TO BE PATIENT WITH ME, AND I WILL MY BEST TO MAKE THIS POSSIBLE FOR BOTH US
STAN: WOW GIRL, I SEEM TO LOVE YOU MORE AND MORE. YOU WON'T REGRET THIS, I PROMISE.
ME: I HOPE SO HEY
STAN: OK BABY, LET ME GET BACK TO WORK. SPEAK LATER LOVE
ME: OK THEN, LATER

NOW I WAS ON CLOUD 9, AS THEY CALL WHEN ONE IS IN LOVE. I WAS FALLING FOR STAN BY THE SECOND, I HATED FEELING THIS WAY. I WANT TO LEAVE ROOM FOR DISAPPOINTMENT BUT MY HEART WON'T LET ME. I GUESS THE HEART NEVER LIES, THIS WAS EXACTLY WHAT I HAD BEEN DREAMING OF ALL MY LIFE. NOW THAT IT IS HAPPENING, I HAPPILY TERRIFIED......

Diary of a Patient Mistress insert 8

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I WAS WOKEN UP BY A MYSTERY CALL, OBVIOUSLY IT WAS STAN. I LOOKED IN THE MIRROR BEFORE I ANSWERED MY PHONE, THEN I REMEMBERED THAT HE COULD NOT SEE ME. THE IMPACT THAT THIS GUY HAD ON ME WAS SO STRONG THAT IT MADE ME GO 'GAGA'.

STAN: MORNING SUNSHINE, HOPE I DIDN'T WAKE YOU UP
ME: MORNING, WELL I'M GLAD YOU DID. I THINK I MIGHT HAVE OVERSLEPT A BIT.
STAN: SO HOW WAS UR NIGHT?
ME: IT WAS OK, IF I SAY SO MYSELF. HOW WAS URS?
STAN: I DIDN'T SLEEP A BLINK, I KEPT THINKING ABOUT YOU ALL NIGHT.
ME: WOW, REALLY? THINKING WHAT EXACTLY?
STAN: NEVER MIND, WHAT ARE YOU DOING TODAY?
ME: I'M NOT REALLY SURE, BUT I THINK I MIGHT JUST CHILLAX N WATCH A GOOD MOVIE
STAN: HOW ABOUT I TAKE YOU TO THE MOVIES, GET TO KNOW YOU BETTER?
ME: EISH STANLEY, I DON'T KNOW HEY. I'M NOT IN THE MOOD TO GO OUT
STAN: COME ON, I'LL MAKE IT WORTH YOUR WHILE. LETS MAKE A DEAL, WE GO OUT AND U CAN PICK ANY MOVIE U WANT
ME: UHHMMM, OK DEAL
STAN: PERFECT, SHALL I PICK YOU UP AT 11AM?
ME: 11 IT IS!
STAN: GREAT, I LOOK FORWARD TO SEEING U AGAIN
ME: *LAUGHING SOFTLY* OK THEN, SEE U IN A COUPLA HOURS

I ROSE FROM MY BED AS IF SOMETHING WAS PUSHING ME, I HAD TO FIGURE OUT WHAT I WAS GOING TO WEAR. I STARTED BROWSING THROUGH MY WARDROBE, LOOKING FOR THE MOST SOPHISTICATED THING TO WEAR, AFTER ALL, I AM A LADY! TIME SEEMED TO GO BY SO QUICKLY, BUT AT LEAST I WAS DONE, I WAS JUST WAITING FOR STAN.

11:15AM, AND STAN HAS NOT YET CALLED OR COME. I THOUGHT TO MYSELF, THIS WAS JUST TOO GOOD TO BE TRUE. I WAS EXPECTING IT! I SAT THERE IN MY LOVELY OUTFIT AND BEAUTIFULLY DONE MAKE UP, WAITING PATIENTLY FOR HIM. 11:25AM, THE PHONE RINGS......

STAN: HI SUNSHINE, THERE WAS AN ACCIDENT ON THE WAY, SO I GOT STUCK IN TRAFFIC. I'M SO SORRY, I'LL BE THERE IN 5MINUTES
ME: OHH, OK

EXACTLY 5 MINUTES LATER, I HEARD THE SOUND OF A CAR HOOTING OUTSIDE MY HOUSE AND I KNEW IT WAS HIM. I TOOK MY BAG AND WALKED TO HIS CAR. HE OPENED THE CAR WINDOW TO GET A GOOD LOOK AT ME, AND SAID: YOU LOOK BEAUTIFUL! THAT'S ALL I WANTED TO DO, IMPRESS HIM

WE DROVE OF TO THE NORTHERN SUBURBS AND I JUST COULDN'T WAIT TO REACH MY DESTINATION, GET UP CLOSE AND PERSONAL WITH THIS HUNKY MAN. FINALLY, WE REACHED OUR DESTINATION, HE PARKED THE CAR, WE GOT OUT AND HEADED FOR THE ENTRANCE TO THE SHOPPING COMPLEX

HE HELD MY HAND.......

STAN: SHALL WE GRAB SOMETHING TO EAT FIRST?
ME: I THINK WE SHOULD RATHER BUY POPCORN AND DRINKS. WE'LL CHOW LATER, WHAT DO U THINK?
STAN: SOUNDS LIKE AN IDEA, NOW MAKE YOUR MOVIE CHOICE, LIKE I PROMISED U COULD..

I WALKED TO THE SCREEN TO SEE WHAT WAS ON, AND OF COURSE ME BEING A GIRL, I CHOSE THE MOST ROMANTIC MOVIE.

ME: I'M DONE CHOOSING
STAN: OK, LET ME GET THE TICKETS. U GO BUY US POPCORN AND DRINKS

WE HAD OUR TICKETS AND SNACKS, WENT INTO THE CINEMA AND SAT RIGHT AT THE BACK. I FELT COMFORTABLE AND HIGHLY APPRECIATED THIS MAN, HE MADE ME COMPLETELY FORGET ABOUT JOE.

THE MOVIE WAS HALF WAY FROM ENDING AND WE WERE NOW HOLDING HANDS, I LOVED EVERY MINUTE OF THIS. I COULD GET USED TO THIS, I THOUGHT TO MYSELF.

IT FINALLY ENDED, WE WENT OUT AND STAN WAS JUST STARING AT ME LIKE I'M CRAZY, WAS IT SOMETHING I HAD DONE? I WONDERED.

ME: SNAP OUT OF IT, WHY ARE U STARING AT ME LIKE THAT?
STAN: SORRY, BUT YOU ARE SIMPLY AMAZING. I JUST CAN'T KEEP MY EYES OFF YOU

I BLUSHED A LITTLE....

STAN: SHALL WE GO?
ME: YEP. I NODDED

WE WERE WALKING AROUND THE MALL, WINDOW SHOPPING AND LAUGHING OFF THE NOT-GOOD LOOKING CLOTHES. WE WERE SOON TIRED AND DECIDED TO GO CHILL AT THE RESTAURANT. WE GOT THERE, GOT A TABLE AND BROWSED THROUGH OUR MENUS. WE FINALLY ORDERED AND SOON OUR MEALS CAME.

ME: THIS BURGER IS GREAT, I COULD HAVE IT ALL YEAR
STAN: AND I'LL BUY IT FOR YOU ALL YEAR
ME: YOU ARE SUCH A CHARMER BUT I DON'T WANT TO BE FAT
STAN: I'LL HELP YOU KEEP FIT
ME: IF THA'S THE CASE, THEN WE HAVE A DEAL

WE WERE LAUGHUNG AND HAVING A GOOD TIME BUT TIME WAS NOT ON OUR SIDE. I MISSED MY BABY AND I WANTED TO LEAVE, HE AGREED TO CALL IT A DAY AND WE HEADED HOME. WE EVENTUALLY GOT HOME, I THANKED HIM FOR A LOVELY OUTING AND OPENED THE CAR DOOR. I WAS ABOUT TO GET OUT WHEN HE PULLED ME BACK AND KISSED ME... I KISSED HIM BACK! WE LOOKED AT EACH OTHER BEFORE I GOT OUT, WE SAID OUR GOOD BYES AND HE LEFT.

I GOT IN THE HOUSE, PICKED UP MY BABY, KISSED HER AND TOLD HER HOW MUCH I HAD MISSED HER. I WALKED TO MY ROOM, JUMPED ONTO MY BED ALL GLOOMY AND BLUSHING. I CANNOT BELIEVE THAT I HAD ACTUALLY KISSED STAN? I FELT GOOD AND MY DAY COULDN'T GET ANY BETTER. LATER THAT EVENING HE CALLED ME AND WE RECAPPED ON OUR EVENTFUL DAY.

STAN: I'M TIRED NOW, I'VE GOT AN EARLY MORNING TOMORROW
ME: WELL, THANX FOR TODAY. U SHOULD GET SOME REST NOW
STAN: NO, THANK YOU FOR KEEPING ME ENTERTAINED
ME: THE PLEASURE WAS ALL MINE, GOODNIGHT THEN
STAN: GOODNIGHT SUNSHINE

I WAS ABOUT TO HANG UP WHEN I HEARD HIM SAY: I LOVE YOU..........

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HOW COULD I HAVE BEEN SO STUPID TO LET THIS 'PLAYA' BACK IN MY LIFE WHEN I KNEW HE WAS GOING TO HURT ME AGAIN, THOUGHT TO MYSELF. A MONTH LATER AND STILL NOTHING FROM JOE, I FINALLY DECIDED TO FORGET ABOUT HIM, FOR GOOD THIS TIME.

IT WAS NOW THE FESTIVE SEASON AND I HAD FORGOTTEN ABOUT JOE, LIFE BECAME NORMAL AGAIN. I WAS SINGLE AND FELT HAPPY BECAUSE I HAD ONLY MYSELF AND BABY TO THINK OF.

JANUARY WAS FINALLY HERE, A NEW YEAR WITH NEW BEGINNINGS. I HAD RESOLUTIONS OF EITHER GOING BACK TO SCHOOL OR FIND EMPLOYMENT. ALL WAS GOING WELL, AND I WAS CALLED FOR AN INTERVIEW IN JOHANNESBURG. I WAS ECSTATIC ABOUT, I WOULD FINALLY BE ABLE TO TAKE CARE OF MYSELF AND BABY WHEN I GET THE JOB. I WENT TO MY INTERVIEW, WHICH WENT PRETTY BAD. I WAS SAD, AND AS I WALKED OUT THAT BUILDING, I MET A VERY HANDSOME GUY, NAMED STANLEY.
STANLEY: HI BEAUTIFUL
ME: I GLANCED AROUND, AND FINALLY SAID: 'ME'?
STANLEY: YES YOU, WHERE ARE YOU OFF TO?
ME: I'M HEADING TO THE TAXI RANK, JUST COME OUT OF AN INTERVIEW
STANLEY: CAN I MAYBE DROP YOU OFF THERE, THAT'S IF YOU DON'T MIND
ME: SURE, WHY NOT

I HOPPED INTO THE CAR AND HE DROVE OFF, I WAS TIRED, SO THE LIFT WAS A BONUS.

STANLEY: DO YOU MIND IF WE STOP BY SOMEWHERE? I WANT TO BUY SOMETHINGS FOR THE HOUSE
ME: NOT AT ALL
STANLEY: OK, THANKS

STANLEY DROVE TO AN UNGERGROUND PARKING LOT OF A MALL, HE GOT PARKING, SWITCHED OFF THE IGNITION AND TURNED TO LOOK AT ME. I LOOKED BACK AT HIM WITH A VERY CURIOUS FACE, THINKING WHAT HE WANTED NOW...

STANLEY: I'M STANLEY, WHAT'S YOUR NAME?
ME: CALL ME LEBO
STANLEY: NICE TO MEET YOU LEBO. SORRY TO BRING YOU HERE, I JUST FELT LIKE WE NEEDED PRIVACY SO THAT I CAN GET TO KNOW YOU MORE. YOU SEEM LIKE A LOVELY LADY
ME: OHHH THANX, I LAUGHED SOFTLY, NICE TO MEET YOU TOO STAN
STANLEY: WOULD YOU LIKE ANYTHING TO DRINK OR EAT MAYBE?
ME: NO THANX, I HAD SOMETHING TO EAT BEFORE THE INTERVIEW AND I'M STILL FULL
STANLEY: I WANT TO SHOW YOU SOMETHING, HOPE U WON'T MIND?
ME: NO, BUT WHAT IS IT?
STANLEY: YOU WILL SEE WHEN WE GET THERE..

I WAS CURIOUS, I HAD JUST MET HIM AND HE WANTS TO SHOW ME STUFF. HE DROVE TO THE MOST BEAUTIFUL SUBURB EVER, PULLED UP IN FRONT OF AN UPMARKET APARTMENT. I WAS NOW SCARED...

ME: WHAT ARE DOING HERE?
STANLEY: RELAX LEBO, JUST COME INSIDE
ME: OK, I'M RIGHT BEHIND YOU..

I WALKED BEHIND HIM, HE UNLOCKED THE DOOR AND ASKED ME TO GO INSIDE. I WENT INSIDE AND HE CAME IN BEHIND ME.

STANLEY: MAKE YOURSELF AT HOME
ME: OHHHK

I SAT ON THE SOFA, HE CAME AND SAT ACROSS FROM WHERE I WAS SEATED, WE BEGAN TALKING, GETTING TO KNOW EACH OTHER. I FELT COMFORTABLE NOW, LIKE I HAVE KNOWN HIM FOR YEARS.
HIS PHONE SUDDENLY RAN....

AFTER THE CALL...

STANLEY: I NEED A FAVOUR?
ME: OOOOWK...
STANLEY: THEY JUST CALLED ME BACK AT THE OFFICE AND I NEED TO RUSH BACK, SO I WAS WONDERING IF YOU COULD STAY HERE TILL I COME BACK?
ME: (STARTLED) BY MYSELF, IN YOUR HOUSE?
STANLEY: WELL, THAT'S HOW MUCH I TRUST YOU
ME: BUT YOU JUST MET ME?
STANLEY: I KNOW, AND I WANT TO KNOW YOU MORE.

HE WENT INTO THE BEDROOM, BROUGHT BACK A PAIR OF SHORTS AND A T-SHIRT.

STANLEY: HERE, CHANGE INT O THESE WHILE I'M GONE. FEEL FREE TO SLEEP OR DO ANYTHING, GIVE ME A RING IF YOU ARE SOMEHOW TROUBLED
ME: OK, I WILL DO AS YOU SAY

I FELT IMPORTANT, LIKE I BELONGED. I WAS STARTING TO LIKE STAN, HE SEEMED LIKE THE KIND OF MAN I WOULD SETTLE DOWN WITH.

STANLEY: HERE IS THE KEY, THERE'S FOOD IN THE FRIDGE IF YOU ARE HUNGRY. I WILL BE BACK IN NO TIME
ME: OK, SEE YOU WHEN YOU COME

HE HAD LEFT AND I WAS SITTING THERE WONDERING IF THIS WAS TRUE OR WAS I DREAMING? I FEEL ASLEEP AND WAS WOKEN UP BY HIS FOOTSTEPS A FEW HOURS LATER.

STANLEY: HEY, I'M BACK. SORRY FOR WAKING YOU UP
ME: WHAT TIME IS IT? I HAVE TO GET GOING
STANLEY: NO PROBLEM, I CAN DROP YOU OFF
ME: THAT WOULD BE AWESOME

HE DROVE ME HOME AND AS I WAS ABOUT TO GET OFF AFTER OUR LAST GOODBYE, HE TOOK OUT HIS WALLET, PULLED UP A FEW NOTES AND SAID: BUY YOURSELF SOME ICE-CREAM, YOU DESERVE IT

I DECLINED, HE INSISTED AND I FINALLY TOOK IT FROM HIS HANDS.

STANLEY: I WILL CALL YOU AS SOON AS I GET HOME
ME: THANX FOR TODAY, TRAVEL SAFELY

HE DROVE OFF, I WENT IN THE HOUSE WITH SMILES ON MY FACE. COULD HE BE MY KNIGHT IN SHINING ARMOUR? I ASKED MYSELF.
A FEW HOURS LATER, AS I WAS READYING MYSELF TO SLEEP, A CALL CAME IN... IT WAS STANLEY, I BLUSHED AS IF HE WERE NEXT TO ME. WE HAD A LONG CONVERSATION, EVENTUALLY SAID OUR GOODNIGHTS AND THAT WAS THE END OF MY MYSTERIOUS DAY.

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I DECIDED TO CALL AND CHECK HOW HE IS DOING.... PHONE RINGING..
JOE: HI GIRL
ME: HI BABE, HOW U DOING?
JOE: I'M OK, HOW R U?
ME: I'M ALL GOOD, JUST CHECKING UP ON U
JOE: THAT'S LOVELY, WHAT R U UP TO?
ME: NOTHING MUCH, JUST CHILLING AND READING SOME MAGS
JOE:OK GIRL, I'M KINDA BUSY AT THE MOMENT. CAN I CALL U BACK WHEN I GO TO LUNCH
ME: SURE THEN, I'LL BE WAITING
I HUNG UP AND STARTED WONDERING IF IT WAS MY IMAGINATION OR DID HE REALLY SOUND WEIRD, I DIDN'T WANT TO THINK THE WORST AS YET SO I KEPT MY THOUGHTS TO MYSELF. WAS HE HAVING SECOND THOUGHTS ABOUT US GETTING BACK TOGETHER? WELL, THERE WAS ONLY 1 WAY TO FIND OUT! I WAITED PATIENTLY FOR HIM TO CALL ME BACK, MINUTES AND HOURS PASSED BY, STILL NOTHING FROM HIM. I HAD REGRETS ABOUT LETTING HIM BACK IN MY LIFE AND IN MY BED... I STARTED BEATING MYSELF UP FOR ACTING SO RECKLESS, NIGHTFALL CAME BY AND IT WAS NOW TIME TO SLEEP, STILL NOTHING FROM JOE! REALITY GOT THE BETTER OF ME AND I KNEW I'V BEEN PLAYED, I CRAWLED INTO MY BED, KISSED MY BABY GOODNIGHT AND CRIED MYSELF TO SLEEP. I WAS RESTLESS, HOPING THAT HE HAD SOMEHOW CALLED/ TEXTED WHILE I WAS SLEEPING, I KEPT ON CHECKING MY PHONE AND IT HIT ME REAL HARD SEEING THERE WAS NO FORM OF CONTACT FROM HIM. OOPS, I DID IT AGAIN, OPENED MY HEART TO A MAN WHEN I WASN'T EVEN SURE HE REALLY WANTED TO BE WITH ME. I STARTED THINKING BACK TO MY PAST RELATIONSHIPS AND HOW SOUR THEY TURNED OUT TO BE, MAYBE I JUST WASN'T MEANT TO BELONG TO SOME1... I WAS EXPECTING HIM TO COME BY TOMORROW AS AGREED, SO I DECIDED TO FINALLY SLEEP AND APPROACH HIM THE NEXT DAY...

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I HAD BEEN WAITING FOR THIS DAY, I'M FINALLY GONNA SEE MY MAN. I LAST SAW HIM WHEN HE CAME BY AND BY NOW I WAS REALLY MISSING HIM. I GOT UP EARLY, CLEANED THE HOUSE, BATHED MY BABY AND MYSELF. COOKED A SIMPLE, YET MOUTH WATERING MEAL AND WHEN ALL WAS DONE, I SAT DOWN, PATIENTLY WAITING FOR MY PRINCE. HE SAID HE WOULD BE HERE BY 12 NOON, IT WAS NOW 12.30! I CALLED HIM:
ME: HI BABY
JOE: HI GIRL
ME: I'M STILL WAITING FOR YOU, U SAID U'D BE HERE BY 12
JOE: (STUTTERING) I-I-I-'M STILL AT WORK, PLUS I'M ON STANDBY. I WILL TRY TO SEE U AS SOON AS I GET A CHANCE TO COME
ME: WHEN WERE U PLANNING ON TELLING ME?
JOE: GIRL I REALLY WANTED TO CALL N LET U KNOW, BUT I RAN OUT OF AIRTIME. I'M SORRY BABY, I'L MAKE IT UP TO U, I PROMISE.
ME: (QUIET)
JOE: I FORGOT TO MENTION THAT WE HAVE AN UNVEILING IN PRETORIA AND I'L BE GOING THERE TOMORROW
ME: ARE U GONNA TAG ME ALONG?
JOE: I'M TRAVELLING WITH MY FAMILY MEMBERS, ELDERS...
ME: OOOHH, SO MEANING I WON'T BE SEEING U AT ALL THIS WEEKEND?
JOE: OF COURSE U ARE, PIRATES IS PLAYING ON SUNDAY AND I THOUGHT WE MIGHT GO WATCH THE GAME TOGETHER
ME: OH, THAT WOULD BE GREAT BABY...
JOE: WHAT ARE U UP TO NOW?
ME: I JUST FINISHED CLEANING AND HAVE BEEN WAITING FOR U SINCE MORNING BUT I UNDERSTAND THAT GOTTA WORK LOVE
JOE: I REALLY MISS U GIRL, CAN'T WAIT TO SEE U ON SUNDAY. HOPEFULLY I'L BE LESS BUSY TODAY DURING MY STANDBY AND QUICKLY COME SEE U
ME: THAT WOULD BE LOVELY, BUT I'M NOT HOLDING MY BREATHE. MY BABY AND STANDBY'S ARE A GREAT DISAPPOINTMENT.. *I LAUGHED SOFTLY*
JOE: I'M GONNA MAKE U SWALLOW YOUR WORDS TODAY, AND WHEN I COME, U WILL HAVE TO MAKE IT UP TO ME...
ME: EXACTLY HOW LOVE?
JOE: BY GIVING THE SWEETEST KISS EVER WITH THOSE IRRESISTIBLE LIPS OF YOURS
ME: YOUR WISH IS MY COMMAND! BABY LET ME NOT KEEP U ANY FURTHER, WE SHALL SPEAK LATER..
JOE: OK GIRL, JUST REMEMBER THAT JOE REALLY DOES LOVE U
ME: I'L TREASURE THAT, HAVE A GREAT DAY
JOE: YOU TOO BABY, CIAO
ME: BYE LOVE
I WAS A BIT DISAPPOINTED WHEN HE TOLD HE HAD TO WORK BUT I KNOW HE HAS NEVER LIED TO ME ABOUT BEING ON STANDBY IF HE WASN'T. I TRUSTED JOE WITH ALL OF MY HEART, HE JUST HAD THIS EFFECT ON ME. THE DAY WENT BY SLOWLY, SEEING THAT I HAD NOTHING BETTER TO DO, SO I BONDED WITH BABY THE ENTIRE DAY. NIGHT FINALLY CAME AND I WENT TO BED EARLY, STILL WAITING FOR JOE TO CALL ME. I WAS HALF ASLEEP WHEN HE CALLED, I WOKE UP INSTANTLY AND WE HAD THE LONGEST, SWEETEST CONVERSATION EVER. WE FINALLY SAID OUR GOODNIGHT AND I WENT BACK TO MY SLEEP, WHILE HE CONTINUED WORKING.

SATURDAY MORNING......
HE CALLS ME JUST BEFORE HE TAKES OFF TO PRETORIA, I TELL HIM TO HAVE A SAFE JOURNEY AND TAKE CARE OF HIMSELF.

THROUGH OUT THE DAY......
STILL NO CALL FROM JOE! I DECIDE TO CALL HIM, ONLY TO FIND HIS PHONE ON VOICEMAIL. I TRIED HIM THE ENTIRE DAY AND STILL NO AVAILABILITY, I BECAME WORRIED (AND MAD). I KEOT WONDERING IF SOMETHING HAD HAPPENED TO HIM OR IF HE WAS WITH SOME1 ELSE? I WAS GOING CRAZY, BY NIGHT TIME I HAD MADE PEACE WITH HIM NOT BEING AVAILABLE FOR ME. I WENT TO BED EMPTY BUT FOUND COMFORT IN MY BABY'S EYES. HER SMILE MADE ME FEEL BETTER, WE SOON FELL ASLEEP....

SUNDAY MORNING...... DAY OF THE GAME.......
I CALLED TO CHECK IF HE WAS OK, AND HIS PHONE WAS ON VOICEMAIL.......

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IS THAT A BABY CRYING? IN TERROR, I SAID YES. WHO'S BABY IS IT? I CHOKED AND CLEARED MY THROAT BEFORE ANSWERING HIS QUESTION; THAT'S MY BABY CRYING IN THERE. THE DISBELIEF AND DISAPPOINTMENT IN HIS EYES WERE ENOUGH TO ENSURE ME THAT HE WAS ABOUT TO WALK AWAY FOR GOOD.. JOE, I CAN EXPLAIN.. AND DON'T LEAVE ANYTHING OUT, I WANT THE WHOLE STORY, HE YELLED! OK, PLEASE LET ME CHECK ON HER FIRST AND I'LL COME TELL U EVERYTHING, SO I WALK TO THE BEDROOM TO CHECK ON MY PUDDING. SHE WENT BACK TO SLEEP AND I REMAINED IN THERE TO TRY AND FIGURE OUT HOW I'M GOING START TELLING JOE. I WENT BACK TO THE LOUNGE AND HE WAS WAITING IMPATIENTLY ON THE COUCH, SO I SAT DOWN BEFORE HIM AND SAID: JOE, LET'S RECAP TO 2013.... A MONTH BEFORE I MET U (APRIL), I WENT TO VISIT MY YOUNGER SISTER IN JO'BURG, WE DECIDED TO GO OUT AND THAT'S WHEN I MET THIS GUY, PAUL. HE GAVE US A LIFT TO THE LOCAL PUB, SO WE EXCHANGED NUMBERS AND HE SAID HE WOULD PICK US UP AGAIN, AND HE DID. I WAS DRUNK BUT NOT IN A CARELESS WAY BECAUSE I KNEW EVERYTHING I WAS DOING THAT NIGHT. PAUL DROVE US HOME, WHEN WE GOT THERE, HE DECIDED THAT WE GO CHECK ANOTHER SPOT. I ASKED MY SISTER TO JOIN US BUT SHE REFUSED, SAYING SHE WAS TOO TIRED. I VOLUNTARILY WENT WITH, WE PARTIED ALL NIGHT AND WHEN MORNING CAME, I WOKE UP IN HIS BED.. (Joe now sweating with anger).

I WAS STILL IN MY CLOTHES AND HE ASSURED ME THAT NOTHING HAPPENED BUT I HAD MY DOUBTS SO HE FINALLY CONFESSED THAT SOMETHING ACTUALLY DID GO DOWN. THE FIRST THING I ASKED HIM IS IF WE USED PROTECTION, HE INSURED ME TO RELAX AND THAT WE DID. IT SUDDENLY ALL CAME BACK AND I REMEMBERED THE WHOLE SCENE, WE DID REALLY USE PROTECTION. HE TOOK ME HOME BUT IT DIDN'T END THERE, PAUL AND I CONTINUED TEXTING AND CALLING EACH OTHER ON A DAILY BASIS. WE GREW FOND OF EACH OTHER AND SOON WERE IN A 'NOT-SO-CLOSE-RELATIONSHIP'. I WENT BACK HOME THE MONDAY AND THINGS WERE BACK TO NORMAL. EXACTLY A MONTH LATER (MAY), THAT'S WHEN I MET U AND WE STARTED DOING OUR THING. THERE WAS STILL CONTACT BETWEEN PAUL AND I, AND IT WAS KINDA HARD TO LET GO OF HIM. U AND I STARTED ON A SLOW PACE, SO I THOUGHT THAT I COULD KEEP BOTH OF U TO SEE WHICH 1 FITS THE SHOE WELL. NOW U AND I STARTED BEING SEXUALLY ACTIVE AND EVERYTHING WAS BLOSSOMING SO BEAUTIFULLY, BUT DON'T GET ME WRONG, I ONLY SLEPT WITH PAUL THAT ONCE! (Joe now with his hands on his head). I LATER FOUND OUT I WAS PREGNANT, I WAS SCARED AND DIDN'T KNOW HOW TO TELL BECAUSE JUDGING ON THE TERM OF MY PREGNANCY, PAUL DEFINITELY HAD TO BE MY BABY'S FATHER. I REMEMBER TELLING U THAT I'L BE MOVING IN WITH MY MOM IN JO'BURG BECAUSE SHE WAS SICK AND NEEDED LOOKING AFTER AND I TOLD U THAT I'LL BE BACK IN A MONTH'S TIME AND U SAID IT WAS OK.

I WAS ACTUALLY GETTING AWAY FROM U, TO TRY AND DECIDE WHAT I'M GOING TO DO ABOUT THIS WHOLE SITUATION. I WENT TO JO'BURG, CONSIDERED HAVING AN ABORTION BUT I HAD A HEART. WE GREW APART, AND EVENTUALLY LOST CONTACT. I STARTED NURSING MY PREGNANCY THERE AND FINALLY GAVE BIRTH TO A BEAUTIFUL BABY GIRL, PAUL WAS NOWHERE IN THE PICTURE, HE DIDN'T, AND STILL DOESN'T WANT ANYTHING TO DO WITH THE BABY. I CAME BACK THE FOLLOWING YEAR AND NURSED MY BABY. JOE STOOD UP AND LOOKED AT ME WITH SPITEFUL EYES, HE LOOKED DISGUSTED, AND HE FINALLY SAID: HOW LONG WERE U PLANNING TO KEEP THIS FROM ME? I CHOKED, BABY I DIDN'T KNOW HOW TO TELL U BUT U ALSO HAD A WOMAN U LIVED WITH AND I THOUGHT THAT IT'S BEST I JUST FORGET ABOUT U. I COULDN'T FACE U AFTER SUCH AN EPISODE, I DIDN'T KNOW WHAT TO SAY TO U, I WANTED TO CALL AT TIMES, BUT I WAS TOO AFRAID.. SO ALL ALONG U LED ME TO BELIEVE I WAS THE REASON FOR OUR PARTING, WHETHER AS U WERE BUSY WITH YOUR OTHER LIFE? JOE, ALL I CAN SAY IS FORGIVE ME? I KNOW U DID BARGAIN FOR THIS BUT U WERE BOUND TO FIND OUT ANYWAY. I UNDERSTAND THAT U FEEL BETRAYED AND WANT NOTHING TO DO WITH ME BUT I JUST NEED U TO FORGIVE ME...

WE BECAME SILENT FOR A FEW MINUTES, AND HE FINALLY SPOKE: GIRL, I HAVE ALWAYS LOVED U, AND STILL DO BUT THIS IS JUST TOO EXTREME FOR ME. B-B-BABY I UNDERSTAND. WAIT, HE SAID, LET ME FINISH WHAT I WANT TO SAY, HE CONTINUED: WE HAD OUR PROBLEMS, AND WE WEREN'T EXACTLY THE PERFECT COUPLE. WE WERE BOTH IN THE WRONG BUT I STILL WANT U TO BE PART OF ME. I LOOKED AT HIM WITH TEARY EYES, IT FELT SO GOOD TO HEAR HIM SAY THAT BUT I WAS STILL UNSURE OF WHERE WE STOOD. HE TRIED TO SAY SOMETHING BUT I IMMEDIATELY PUT MY HANDS AROUND HIM AND THANKED HIM FOR UNDERSTANDING.WE WERE ABOUT TO LET GO, OUR EYES LOCKED ON EACH OTHER...

NEXT THING WE WERE KISSING AND 1 THING LED TO ANOTHER... SOON WE WERE MAKING LOVE AND IT FELT SO GOOOOOOOD! WE CUDDLED FOR A WHILE BEFORE HE TOLD ME HE HAD TO GO BACK TO WORK, I DIDN'T ARGUE WITH THAT, IN FACT, I WAS VERY HAPPY AND FELT WHOLE. WE GOT DRESSED, AND I WALKED HIM TO HIS CAR, HE HUGGED AND KISSED ME 1 MORE TIME, THEN LOOKED AT ME AND SAID: I LOVE U GIRL AND I HOPE U WE CAN SEE PAST ALL THE DRAMA TO START ON A CLEAN SLATE. I AGREED WITH HIM! HE KISSED ME ON MY FOREHEAD AND SAID HE'LL BE BACK IN 2 DAYS TIMES, I SMILED AND SAID OK. HE GOT IN THE CAR, HOOTED AND DROVE OFF AND I WAVED AT HIM TILL HIS CAR DISAPPEARED IN TRAFFIC. I WALKED BACKED BACK TO THE HOUSE, ALL SMILEY AND THINKING TO MYSELF: 'THAT WAS HARD, YET SIMPLE! AT LEAST I HAVE MY MAN BACK AND ALL IS IN THE PAST NOW. I GOT IN THE HOUSE, DRANK COFFEE AND WENT BACK TO BED, IT WAS JUST A MATTER OF TIME BEFORE I SEE HIM AGAIN, 2 DAYS HE SAID.........

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EXACTLY A YEAR LATER, I GET A TEXT ON MY PHONE WITH VERY FAMILIAR NUMBERS AND IT READ: HI GIRL! THERE IS ONLY ONE PERSON WHO CALLS ME THAT, COULD IT BE HIM? I REPLIED 'HI'.. HOW ARE U? I SAID I'M GOOD WENA? HE REPLIED I'M OKAY, HOW HAVE U BEEN? I'V BEEN GREAT, SORRY BUT WHO AM I TALKING TO? HE SAID: YOUR MAN! MY EYEBROWS SHOT. JOE IS THAT U? HE REPLIED : THE 1 AND ONLY GIRL. I COULDN'T BELIEVE IT, I ASKED: MY JOE? I COULD FEEL THE SMILE ON HIS FACE. YES GIRL, 'THEE'JOE! I MISS U GIRL, MY LIFE HAS BEEN INCOMPLETE WITHOUT U. I PAUSED A LITTLE, I MISSED HIM TOO BUT IS IT TOO EARLY TO TELL HIM THAT? IF I DIDN'T, HE WOULD THINK I HAVE MOVED ON... THAT'S WHEN I ASKED HIM TO CALL ME. HE CALLED AND I ANTICIPATED BEFORE ANSWERING MY PHONE, FINALLY I DID: HI, ITS BEEN A WHILE HEY. YES IT SURE HAS, WHAT HAVE U BEEN UP TO? I TOLD HIM I'V BEEN ROUND AND ABOUT. GIRL WE REALLY NEED TO TALK, I NEED TO GET SOMETHINGS OFF MY CHEST AND EXPLAIN TO U WHAT HAPPENED... I THOUGHT ABOUT IT AND I KNEW THAT SEEING HIM WOULD FULFILL MY EMPTY HEART. CAN I COME BY YOUR PLACE TODAY? I DIDN'T HESITATE: SURE, Y NOT.. THAT WAS IT, I WAS FINALLY GOING TO SEE HIM AFTER A YEAR BUT THERE WAS 1 MAJOR CHANGE IN MY LIFE; I HAD A BABY AND HE DIDN'T KNOW ABOUT IT. I PANICKED THINKING ABOUT WHAT HE WOULD SAY AND HOW HE WOULD REACT TO THIS. OK GIRL, I'L BE THERE SOON.. OK DEAR, I'L BE WAITING..... I TOOK A LONG BATH, FIXED MYSELF UP FOR HIM, PUT ON MY MOST EXPENSIVE PERFUME, MY RECENTLY BOUGHT LINGERIE( 1 NEVER KNOWS WHAT MIGHT HAPPEN WITH THIS HUNK AROUND)..LOL ! 2 HOURS LATER, HE CALLED: GIRL, I'M OUTSIDE! THERE IT WAS, MY MOMENT OF TRUTH... I WALKED OUT TO GO OPEN THE GATE FOR HIM, AND THE FIRST THING WE DID WHEN WE SAW EACH OTHER WAS HUG EACH SO TIGHT THAT NOT EVEN THE GREAT WALLS OF CHINA COULD BREAK US APART. WE FINALLY LET GO, THEN CAME THE STARING IN THE EYES AND MOMENT OF SILENCE. I INVITED HIM INSIDE AND HE WENT STRAIGHT THROUGH TO THE LOUNGE WHERE I WAS WATCHING T.V. HE WAS ABOUT TO START TALKING WHEN SUDDENLY MY BABY CRIED.........

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REGARDLESS OF ALL THIS CHAOS, I STILL LOVED HIM DEARLY.I DO'NT KNOW IF I'D SURVIVE IF I EVER LET HIM GO, HE WAS MY SOUL MATE. WELL, AT LEAST I THOUGHT SO! THINGS CONTINUED BEING ROSY BETWEEN US AND WITH TIME, I HAD FORGOTTEN THE OTHER MISTRESS. HE WASN'T MARRIED TO HER OR TO ME, SO I ALSO CONSIDERED HER AS HIS MISTRESS. WITH ALL THE PROMISES HE MADE TO ME, I WAS SURE I WOULD BE THE ONE HE GRABS AT THE FINISH LINE. I HAD MY INSECURITIES, I GUESS ANY 'MISTRESS' WOULD TOO, BUT HE STILL REASSURED OF HIS UNDYING LOVE FOR ME. I SAT DOWN 1 EVENING , THINKING ABOUT ALL THIS: I MEAN THEY AREN'T MARRIED SO I COULD TELL HIM I'M HIDING BEING TABLES N CHAIRS. I WANTED HIM ALL TO MYSELF AND THAT WAS MY MISSION..TO MAKE HIM ALL MINE. H WOULDN'T HAVE COME TO ME IF HE STILL REALLY LOVED HER RIGHT? I GUESS I'LL NEVER KNOW BUT BOTTOM LINE WAS: I WAS HIS HIS AND HE WAS MINE!............. THEY STARTED FIGHTING IN THE HOUSE, NOT OVER ME BUT OVER THEIR OWN MISUNDERSTANDINGS. I WAS HAPPY THAT IT WOULD FINALLY COME TO AN END AND I WOULD HOLD MY TITLE IN MY HAND:HIM. HE BEGAN TAKING ME EVERYWHERE HE WENT:THE MALL, THE BANK, TO SEE HIS COLLEAGUES BUT STILL NOT HIS PARENTS' HOUSE AND THIS WORRIED ME A LOT. NEVERTHELESS, I KNEW WE WOULD EVENTUALLY GET TO THAT PART. U WON'T BELIEVE WHAT HAPPENED? WE GREW APART, LOST TOUCH AND BOTH FIND OURSELVES COMMITTED TO OTHER PEOPLE, I WASN'T GOING TO WAIT FOR HIM FOREVER. BESIDES, I HAD MY OWN LIFE TO LIVE AND I COULDN'T LET HIM GET IN THE WAY OF MY HAPINNESS....

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IT ALL STARTED AT THE COST OF BEING LONELY AND BEING HURT BY MY LOVED ONES. NEVER WOULD I HAVE THOUGHT I WOULD BE A MISTRESS, ESPECIALLY NOT WITH MY CALIBRE BUT I GUESS LIFE HAS A WAY OF TURNING OUT THE WAY IT WANTS.

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, WHAT AM I THINKING? COULD HE TRULY GO THAT FAR? I WAITED PATIENTLY ON HIM. MONTHS WENT BY AND I WAS SUDDENLY SURE AND FELT COMFORTABLE WITH 'US'. THEN THE UNSPEAKABLE HAPPENED: WE WERE LAYING IN BED AT NIGHT AFTER PASSIONATELY MAKING LOVE, HIS PHONE RANG AND HE IGNORED IT AT FIRST. I TOLD HIM TO ANSWER IT, I COULD ALREADY SENSE SOME UNEASINESS WITHIN ME. HE FINALLY ANSWERED AND THE FIRST WORDS THAT COME OUT OF HIS GORGEOUS LIPS WERE: 'BABY'.! I HAD NO WORDS, BUT ONLY EARS TO LISTEN TO THIS SENSUAL CONVERSATION, RIGHT TO THE BITTER END. HE HUNG UP AND TURNED TO ME, WITH THAT GUILTY LOOK ON HIS FACE. I DIDN'T WANT ANY EXPLANATIONS, JUST A MERE 'WHY?'.....

I WENT TO A FOOTBALL EVENT WITH MY FRIENDS AND SEVERAL OTHER PEOPLE. I KNOW HE HAD BEEN CHECKING ME OUT FOR MONTHS NOW, HE DISGUSTED ME BUT I SOON GREW FOND OF HIM. IT ALL BEGAN AT THE SOCCER MEETING, HE FINALLY TOLD ME HOW HE FELT ABOUT ME AND I WAS SWEPT OF MY FEET. IT WASN'T ABOUT HIS JOB, MONEY OR CAR, IT WAS THE CONNECTION I HAD WITH HIM. WE MADE IT OFFICIAL THAT AFTERNOON, HE WAS MINE AND I WAS HIS! I WAS GOING PLACES WITH THIS MAN, HE WAS EXACTLY WHAT I WANTED IN A MAN: HANDSOME, CHARMING, HUMOROUS, SUCCESSFUL AND MOST OF ALL, LOVING&CARING. MONTHS WENT BY AND WE WERE DOING GREAT, EVEN WENT TO HIS HOUSE AND I KNEW FROM THAT MOMENT ON, I WAS THE ONE.......

HE TREATED ME LIKE ROYALTY, ANYTHING I DESIRED, I GOT FROM LOVE & AFFECTION TO MATERIAL THINGS. I FELT LIKE I BELONGED, I WOULDN'T TRADE THIS FOR ANYTHING. OUR RELATIONSHIP GREW DEEPER AND DEEPER, IT WAS ONLY A MATTER OF TIME BEFORE HE POPPED THE QUESTION.... WAIT

HE DIDN'T KNOW WHERE TO BEGIN, ALL HE COULD SAY WAS ' IM SORRY BABY, I LOVE U AND I NEVER MEANT TO HURT YOU'. KNOWING MY MUTUAL AFFECTION TOWARDS HIM, I WANTED TO HIT HIM SO HARD AND WALK OUT OF HIS LIFE FOR GOOD. AFFECTION GOT THE BETTER OF ME AND I WAS SOON HOLDING HIM TIGHTLY IN MY SMALL ARMS. I TOLD HIM THIS SHOULD BE THE END OF THE ROAD FOR US, HE WENT DOWN ON 1 KNEE AND BEGGED ME TO STAY. I COULD SEE AND FEEL THE GUILT ON HIM, IT PAINED ME TO EVEN THINK THAT THIS WAS THE WAY TO END IT. I LIFTED HIM UP, REASSURED HIM THAT WE COULD WORK A WAY THROUGH IT TOGETHER, THEN SUDDENLY A CERTAIN LIGHT SHINED WITH LOVE IN HIS SMOOTH EYES. HE WAS MY MAN AFTER ALL..OR WAS HE? AT LEAST I THOUGHT SO. WE AGREED TO GO ON AS USUAL, I COULDN'T LET HIM GO, NO MATTER HOW HARD I TRIED TO DENY THIS CONNECTION I HAD WITH HIM BUT I KNEW THINGS WOULD BE DIFFERENT FROM NOW ON WARDS. I WOULD NEVER BE ABLE TO LOOK AT HIM IN THE SAME LOVING WAY I USED TO, A PIECE OF MY LOVE FOR HIM JUST WALKED OUT OF MY HEART AND I DIDN'T KNOW IF I COULD LET IT BACK IN...