
Diary of a cheating husband chapter 200
"Women are the reason why men cheat. They know that too"
Chapter 200
Time has a way of humbling you, trust me I've learned this the hardest way possible. I went from being a student to a widow and a mother of 4 but I have no regrets dont get me wrong. Although there were days I would cry until I couldn't cry anymore,days when driving my kids to school was a mission after Lonwabo's funeral everything in that house reminded us of him to a point where Seth asked me if we could move back to Cape Town, but I refused and told him we cant always run away from our problems. With time and patience, we decided to move to our old house in Bishopscourt trust me that too was hard but we pulled through as a family. But I think the hardest was adjusting financially, I was alone now and I didn't have a job between paying the bond and water bills including school fees just to mention a few things were not easy. Lobsie left me alot of money but I took a vow not to spend a cent but save it for the kids. So I decided to sell the BMW and we were left with the Range, Seth and Viwe both attended Rondebosch boys. I forgot to mention Viwe stays with me now, Mbasa also moved back with us and he was still dating Qhama lol Lobsie would have been proud. I also got a job through Nomtha, at Transnet so I saw my kids often being super mother is hard as hell. Thato finally gave birth to a girl, Cwenga forced her to name the baby 'Thando' and that touched my heart. The weirdest thing though in these past 2 years has to be Bukho and Zimkita the love hate relationship yet they had plenty of sex lol. Zanele worked at the Boardwalk hotel, we surprised her this one time Zimkita suggested we visit her at work and buy her lunch, the past wasn't forgotten but we were learning to forgive the past.
Today was a saturday and I was having lunch with Nonhle this other girl from work,Kathy and Thato at News. Thato"I am sorry but we have to raise this issue" Kathy"Entle when are you getting laid" I laughed. Me"I am in no rush " Nonhle"Dont rush her" Thato side eyed her. Thato"We said dick not a man, she can buy a plastic dick for all I care but Entle looks like hell" Kathy"You've given up on life my friend" Me"I just haven't meet anyone worthy" Thato"but if you'd meet that person would you atleast try" Me"Yes now can we order" Thato"You have a date tonight at Raddison Blue, dress up its a black tie event" I thought my eyes would pop out. Me"Tonight? I have nothing to wear and my hair hay hay forget it" Kathy"That's where we come in" Thato gave me a dress "Size 32, your favourite colour lately black and shoes size 3 I got you a platform I know how you used to love those" Kathy"Last but not least a trip to Gugs to get your hair done" I was crying dont not because I was sad though but I was happy. Thato"Come come Cindy your prince awaits" We paid for drinks and we drove to Gugs but in different cars, Nonhle decided not to join. After the salon we went to my house, I took a shower and got dressed.
Thato"Seth mamakho has a date" Seth"finally" Viwe"We want you to get a boyfriend" Me"tsek Thato I know you made them say that" Kathy"You look so beautiful! hamba you'll be late" Me"I dont even know his name" Thato" He knows you" I drove as sceptical I was, I spoke to Lobsie in the car I did that alot. strange as it might be it calms me down. I got out of the car and really there was a guy at the entraced and he smilled at me. Me"Hey I'm Entle" someone behind me giggled.
"Thatha njani date yomnye umntu" I laughed too because I knew that voice. Me"Yhuuuu you're my date?" Khaya"Blind date Entle, you dont know me clean slate nontombi" We hugged. Me"Can we go to the beach instead, not in the mood for a crowd" Khaya"Okay babe" I left my car and we left with his, we didn't talk much in the car. So I spoke to Lobsie just to kill time "Baby I dont think I can go through with this, I am not ready and I dont want it to seem like I am letting man come and go in our house..." Khaya"Entle" Me"We are here" Me"okay" I got out of the car, leaving my shoes there. Khaya"relax" Me"I am" he looked at me. Khaya"You still miss him?" Me"Alot" Khaya"I wont rush you, I just want to see you laugh qha. You look so drained" Me"Sorry ke" Khaya"Masambe let me drive you home" Me"A.a I'll stay, I want to too" Khaya"Nope, you'll call me when you want to see me. No blind dates, just you Entle wanting to see mna Khaya" He drove me, we hugged and he left. Everyone was still up excited waiting for me. I just rushed to my room and locked.
Not that I didn't want to try but I wasn't ready, my heart wasn't there not yet anyway. I just cried because I felt useless like the self pity stole my happiness or me moping around was irritating my friends. Me"Lonwabo I am letting go, not saying I will forget you or our marriage but I have to atleast try to be happy again right?. Some no more black clothes, no tears just smiles from here on" I think after that night it took me six if not more to pick up the phone and call Khaya, althoughwe didn't date we were just friends. Then at work I met Gcisa, we went out on a few dates just to save myself from hurt I told him about Lonwabo and my kids but I guess he didn't care because he still liked me but I didn't introduce him to my kids, it was still early.
My life has been hell on earth, happiness was always rare. With God,family and friends I made it. Although some days it felt like God tested me more than the others,took more than he gave but with Unekamva,Viwe,Seth and Ntombikayise I learned once you have kids your joys become limited and transferred to them, pain is worse because every action makes you think as a mother instead of just a normal human. Losig my father and husband were the worst points of my life but it took my father dying for me to get the daughter i've always wanted and Lonwabo passing away for me to depend on myself, God works in irony. I have siblings that would kill for me,friends that would fight a war for me and a husband who left with lovely kids. I Entle Lamani Skhosane, finally found happiness from within